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on-going-and-incomplete-list-of-things-that-inform-inspire-challenge-and-teach-me-the-practice-of-work-of-love-of-pictures-of-language-of-making-the-soup: the english channel and all of the swims it welcomes me to, WATER, so many friends ~ peers ~ lovers ~ chosen family ~ fellow care-takers that keep me writing, that build language with me, that are the poems, the pictures, the making, the intimacy of all friendships, and the way they have and do hold me, my partners in collaboration in love in this messy life (i love you eternally), watching friends feed one another, watching friends kiss, kissing, the red candle sticks at the bodega in seven dials, the blue moonlit orgy painting in my living room by Ellen Hanson, ingredients such as: sweat poetry citrus fire sun / shade (dimension not flatness) love letters sky sky gazing tape young mick jagger white sheet apples lemons flowers special cups garden cameras tabaci baggies postits favourite pen google drive the farm in michigan vaseline wood paper candles linens grandpa’s shirts coffee water wine projector glass gels fingerflesh dreams the field youtube twitter google the sea the clouds the grass the wind trees street lights mezcal sex color ink infrared time hair body hair mountains cliffs edges rocks baths salt honey tears stools jazz music generally running body headlamp sticky stuff pools screens libraries “stages” students who are really teachers thunderstorms waitingrooms the quilt my mother mailed me and her smell the roses in the garden at 9 fourth avenue Gay God berries by the bucket and in the shower the sounds of bells and trains sardines sunscreen; all of the books: Sygyzy Beauty and Time is a Thing The Body Moves Through, T. Fleischmann; A Queer Anthology of Joy; bell hooks’ all about love; Queer Ancient Ways, Zairong Xiang; Minerva the Miscarriage of the Brain, Johanna Hedva; Where Are The Tiny Revolts?; !Mary Oliver!; Carl Sagan; three (and more) books published by Gender Fail including An Anthology on Failure 2: Building On Our Failed States, Radical Softness as a Boundless Form of Resistance and Urgent Publishing After The Artist’s Book: Making Public in Movements Towards Liberation by Paul Soulellis; Maddness, Rack, and Honey, Mary Ruefle; Men and Apparitions, Lynne Tilman; Coeur De Lion and Mercury, Ariana Reines; We Want It All, a An Anthology of Radical Trans Poetics published by Nightboat Books; Wayward Lives, Beautiful Experiments, Saidiya Hartman; A Breath of Life, Clarice Lispector; Whats Love (or Care, Intimacy, Warmth, Affection) Got to Do with it?, e-flux journal; so many presses and the individuals that hold them make them go including Nico Fontana, Flower Press, iP, Pilot Press, Ignota; LA Warman School; the book Claude Cahun Photographe and the man who sold it to me for too cheap at the small bookshop in berlin under the promise i would never sell it thank you for seeing me shaking as i held it; Atlas, Gerhard Richter and looking at it on the floor of the library at CCC and all the books i held in that library over three years and the ones i held in the JFABC (ones i asked for, ones that were chosen for me as i slipped on white gloves and began hours of touching) and also the unabridged bookstore in lakeview and the kind individual who introduced me to stacks of queer poetry there in 2013; The Studio Reader; Pleasure Activism and Emergent Strategy, adrienne maree brown; Autobiography of Red, Anne Carson; Self-Organized, Open Editions; Time is a Mother and On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous, Ocean Vuong; They Inhabit While Working, Jaana Laakkonen; Paul Takes The Form of a Mortal Girl, Andrea Lawlor; Valencia, Michelle Tea; Slow Spatial Reader: Chronicles of Radical Affection, ed. Carolyn F. Strauss; London-rose Beauty Will Save the World, Fanny Howe; Institute for Postnatural Studies’ Compost Reader; the poetry of Patti Smith; Year of Magical Thinking, Joan Didion; Kathy Acker, McKenzie Wark, Wark writing about Kathy; and all the other books i’ll leave out for now that are stacked on the coffee table, nightstand, fireplace, mantle, in boxes, the ones that have been there a long time the new ones that keep coming the ones that have been mailed to me recommended to me texted to me, Close to the Knives, David Wojnarowicz, MOVIES, Lucretia Martel, Rinko Kawauchi, Camille Henrot, Lieko Shiga…so many all of the photographers collecting on my little are.na page and in the mental archive and all the ones that are not yet living there in that archive and the ones i've met and the ones i haven't and the ones i'll never be able to meet and all the pictures that have made me want to go home and make a picture and also all the pictures that have made me loathe photography all the poems that have made me scream in love in jealous urge in pain, the way grass feels on legs and the imprint it leaves, anyone who has ever fed me anyone that has ever walked into my studio and touched and looked anyone that has ever walked me home and by home i mean all of the homes and this is really what it is, the perpetual homecoming and knowing in love and in pain that i might never fully arrive that this is never done that i am never done but i am always reaching dreaming building and looking for that queer kingdom in the sky